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" YOU SEE EVERYTHING
WHEN THE WORLD
DOESN'T SEE YOU. "

ind. liz taylor
of ahs: hotel
prev. hcwtovogue
est. 10.11.15

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          elizabeth isn’t quite sure what to expect in asking the other for such comfort, but what she gets is more painful than anticipated. donovan is a sore subject for her still, even a year later, and lips will part as the countess is rendered SPEECHLESS. her hands will squeeze the one of liz’s, and it’s all she can do to keep in control of herself, though ‘control’ is used sparingly.   ❛ —— i have not. there is no one to compare. ❜   elizabeth has realized the greatness that donovan was to her, but such a thing had come too late. meeting her dearest friend’s gaze, her own sad and lost, the countess goes on.   ❛ i try every single night, but i feel… nothing. ❜   the first few she’d taken to her room had ended up dead, but such a cycle quickly grew boring. she let’s them go now, but nothing is as fulfilling as donovan himself had been.   ❛ what do i do? ❜   leaning towards the other, it’s obvious elizabeth is desperate for guidance.

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                                        ❝        OH,   SWEETHEART,       ❞            leaves   her   lips   in   a   whisper  :  silent   sorrow   expressed   in   blatant   sympathy,   tongue   parting   tiers   with   a   hushed   click.   arms   of   lank   stir   to   envelop   the   other   in   a   warm   embrace    –––   but   gesture   falls   short  ;  uncertainty   of   comfort   laces   fingertips   as   they   instead   rest   softly   on   the   curve   of   elizabeth’s   shoulder.   grasp   tightens   briefly,   gently,   as   hesitation   melts   away,   &   regard   for   her   friend’s   wellbeing   cements   in   the   forefront   of   her   mind.           ❝         –––   it’s   best   to   let   those   things   happen   naturally   ;   you’ll   find   someone   eventually.         ❞        while   knowledge   of   such   an   idea   is   not   concrete,   the   words   of   reassurance   enter   the   room   with   hopes   of   solacing,   but   do   so   quietly,   dancing   on   cracking   glass.          ❝         in   the   meantime,   what   about   other   forms   of   companionship ?   it’s   never   too   late   to   mend   old   wounds   –––   especially   with   eternity   on   our   hands.         ❞

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          to say the two have overcome many obstacles would be an understatement, but the fact that they’ve come out on top together says more than any negative gesture could. relieved when liz takes her hand, the countess gives it a gentle squeeze.  ❛ you are as radiant as ever, if that helps any. ❜   a soft chuckle follows, the smile on elizabeth’s face one of few genuine ones in her long lifetime. admittedly, she’s only ever saved her authentic feelings for the woman before her.  ❛ do you still feel things? — i haven’t been able to… not since i died. ❜   it’s something she’s only ever told james, but that had been because she’d just passed at that point. to tell liz means a lot to her, her expression even faltering to one of immense sadness.

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                                           concern,   while   it   does   lace   a   pristinely - made   brow,   attempts   to   conceal   itself   for   the   other’s   sake.   an   occurrence   where   the  countess   seeks   comfort   from   liz   is   one   rarer   than   its   opposite,   with   liz   seeking   out   the   countess   for   comfort,   &   she   drives   to   do   just   that,   without   scaring   the   other   away.   so,   she   becomes   the   pillar   of   wisdom   she’s   now   known   to   be,   heart   full   with   the   intent   to   aid   in   anyway   possible.   the   palm   held   in   her   grip   is   lightly   squeezed,   other   hand   coming   to   rest   atop   their   embrace.             ❛          ––   you   know,   it   might   do   you   some   good   to   throw   yourself   back   out   there.   have   you   met   anyone   since… ?          ❜         (    donovan’s   name   lingers   on   her   tongue,   but   is   not   voiced   )

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         ❛ how long has it been?❜   the countess will inquire softly as she looks upon her one TRUE friend. she’s asking about her death, liz’s, a saddened look upon her face. though elizabeth was and is honored to have been the one to help the other transition ONE LAST TIME, it does not lift the sorrow that weighs heavy on her shoulders. emerald gaze taking liz in, the countess attempts a smile as she reaches out for the other’s hand to take into one of her own.

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       the   countess’s   extended   grasp   is   given   into   easily,   without   the   hesitation   that   previously   laced   fingers.   it’s   a   small   act   of   trust    ––    a   quiet   show   of   friendship  :   a   hopeful   prospect   that   did   not   stray   far   from   liz’s   mind   after   her   death.   it   lingered,   &   though   she   has   not   yet   had   the   courage   to   initiate   the   conversation,   she   cherishes    the    little    time   they   spend   together.                  oh,         ❜           the   noise   slips   out   on   the   bough   of   an   exhale,   lips   pursing   into   a   small   smile   as    she   looks   to   the   other,         ❛          –––    a   few   weeks.  it’s.  .  . different,   but   i’m   getting   used   to   it.         ❜

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